When U need me

Pretending It's okay
Pretending I don't care
Pretending I'm happy

When no one is around
I sit there and think
Why I can't tell you how I feel.
You're my close friend...
So why can't I?

Around you I have to pretend
I'm not hurt
Pretend I'm not affected
But the truth is

It's ruining me.
Pain, I'm used to it.
You showed me what it is.
You showed me how to deal with it.

But now, this pain I cannot deal with.
Cuz maybe...You're not here
here to help me get through this.
So now what do I do?

Pretend?
Well tha's what I'm good at.
But though you don't care anymore;
I will be here when you ever do need me.