This is the end

Laying here thinking on my bed Ive got the ceiling patterns memorized in my head. my cheeks are stained with the tears Ive cried my arms are cut to show i tried. hes so close yet so far away don't even know what I'm trying to say. how could something so good be so bad? he cheated and lied ruining everything we had. I'm distant now i trust no one anymore. he proved me all i had could be ripped and torn. he showed me that love isn't real I'm positive now with all the pain that i feel. it didn't have to end this way its over now theres nothing left to say I hope the pain soon subsides and the feelings fade. I lost a lot then lost a little more. now my worlds ripped apart and torn