I want to be singing loudly
But the words do not leave my lips
I should be shouting for joy
But I can't because of this pain.
Yes, I admit, it feels like hell
And nothing could be worse
And then of course I think I'm okay
But it only drops me down farther
No, I don't share
No, I don't talk
But yes I do cry
And I feel.
And I hurt.
Sometimes I feel stupid
And others I feel great
But how can I accept
That you are not part of my fate?
I don't understand why I had
To go through all this heartache
Why couldn't it have been someone else
And just let me be in peace?
Sometimes I feel peaceful
Others I'm in a trainwreck
But all I know
Is that I can't go on
Without you.
