It was just another normal day
But music of destruction starts to play
Wicked emotions start to brew
Jealousy in me, I never knew
Feelings built up till all was lost
In my body seem to be a holocaust
Destroyed feelings and emotions
Set off like nuclear explosions
Feeling like a rag doll cast aside when not wanted
Faces in my mind leaving my haunted
Raging hatred for the ones closer than me
Just a shadow in the back I can not see
I feel like I'm buried six feet under
Far from the living but with noise as loud as thunder
To bad there's no anesthesia for this type of pain
Because it feels like I got hit with a locomotive train
Should I cast aside my words as a writer?
And pick up the sword and become a fighter
Where should I go from here?
Should I stay or just disappear?
Good and bad feelings they all seem to stick
Please God tell me which path to pick
I don't know what to do or what to say
No light no darkness for me just grey
From these emotions I can't be free
I'll just see what the future has for me
