How it use to be...

I use to look forward to everyday
Wake up everymorning feeling loved
& cared for..
I had a loving family,
& just the right number of friends
Above all I had someone who loved me to death.

But as time went by things changed,
I was forced to leave something behind...
Something BIG...
I left behind my happiness..
Along with my happiness..
I left my soul...
For a place that was filled with hatred,
A place that was unwelcoming and cold..

Then one day i decided to return
Return to the place...
Where I was once happy and loved
My soul rejoined with my body
The days i spent there came back to me
I walked though the corridor...
&& With every step i took...
I walked through another memory..

Finalli the last memory hit me
It is my biggest regert...
&& My biggest mitake...

I was happy about being back
&& I thought things would of stayed were I left it..
&& Everything would be the same..
But I was wrong..
Everything changed...
&& Nothing was where I left it..

I thought maybe one day
Everything would be back to normal..
But it never happened...

Again & again i hoped...
Again & again i cried...
Again & again i tried...
But nothing worked

Now I'm tired..
Tired of hoping
Tired of waiting
Tired of crying
I'm weak && hurt..
&& I just cant take it anymore.....

But everynight I wish upon a single star....
That everything would be bak to how it once was....