Torn

How am I supposed to decide?
Torn between two men; torn between two choices...

On the right hand,
I've got the man of my dreams,
One that I know inside and out.
The one who was my first on so many levels,
The one who knows me like none other.
He was the one who opened my heart,
Taught me lessons I never learned.
His love is my shelter,
His arms are my home that I dare not leave.
My best friend,
I could imagine no other in my life.
His touch sends me chills,
deep down in my soul,
chills that never left since the first time they were felt.
Hearing "I Love You" sends me into a fantasy world,
He is my one and only.

On the left hand,
I've got a man who I know little about.
He's been my friend since we were kids,
Starting out in high school
We grew into long time friends.
The one time that we decided to take thing further,
I was with someone else,
But that failed to stop us.
And while it was clear that he only wanted one thing,
I went to his house and he got it.
Now here is a man that treats me like shit.
He doesn't know how I feel,
And I hope he never will.
But I can not help but fall for him.
He revives a piece of me that I thought was dead,
One that I didn't look for.

So what am I supposed to do?
When my heart screams one name,
But my body and mind scream another?
How am I supposed to choose?
The decision seems obvious: go with the one you love.
But the only issue is the future...
Which continues to leave me torn,
no matter how long I try to decide.