Letting it out

Death is a horrible experience
It comes out of no where
And grabs the ones you love
Then laughs at you as you sit there and grieve
It affects you your whole life
Whether its coming back to haunt you
Or coming to take another loved one away
To describe death is not an easy feat
But to let it out,
Tell people how you where affected and listen to their sad stories is even harder
Death has been in my life many times now
And I'm sure it has been in yours too
If it hasn't yet
You don't know how lucky you are
My dog died a few years ago
My nana was taken when i was but a child
My papa right before 9/11
But the most recent deaths have been the hardest
And most life changing
A step-father i hated is now gone
And a mother i adored has left me alone
Dead inside
Because although death takes away the ones you loved
It also takes more
It reaches inside you and takes a part of your soul
Whether its a tiny piece you don't even feel
Or a gut-wrenching hole in your heart
And you have to sit here
Acting like everything is OK
While apart of your soul is gone
And all you want to do is to get it and your loved ones back
Hoping to stop the pain
But it doesn't work
People turn to drugs and booze
But that wont help
It only numbs the pain
The best thing to do is to let it out
Tell people your story
Teachers ask how your doing
Friends give you looks
And you sit there
Afraid to open up
But you have to
You have to warn those who haven't been effected
And one day you will
Whether its to a certain friend
Or an entire population by writing one poem.......
So to those who haven't had to deal with the pain of losing someone special
I envy, yet pity you
cause one day death will creep into your life
And nothing can prepare you for the shock, the anger and the tears
For those who have lost a loved one
You are not alone
And never will be
There are other dealing with the same thing
And there always will be
Because ironically,
Death doesn't die.