Paid In Full

Stinging loneliness is all I feel
Instead of having a beautiful love
I'm filled with sheer confusion
Experiencing true love is all I dream of
But instead I've only felt seclusion

Regret fills my mind
As I've created disappointment
Retrieving only what I have needed
Now lies within, a cloud of resentment
For lavishly feeding my own greed

Contentment is but an illusion
I long to be proud of mine
However, I don't make enough money
Paycheck to paycheck flusters my mind
Meeting requirements isn't satisfactory to me

Being in debt to the powers of our society
Stresses me upon grey hair
The letters, the phone calls, they never stop
Threats to my lively hood are less than fair
My uphill struggle waters their depository crop

Being an insufficient being in the eyes of blood
Has only created disbelief within my heart
Am I less of a person than they?
Their dilemma...I refuse to live their part
It's been so long that I've turned the other way

Miserable are these times
Life throws curve ball after curve ball
I've been knocked down over and over
Only strong enough to crawl
And once more, here comes another

My troubled mind longs to be relieved
I've gone to life's war, I pray to be free
I beg for forgiveness to those I've betrayed
It's time to live life solely for me
Believe me, my debt to humanity has been paid