Im Not Ok (I Promise)

My life is fading
i hate the way i am
its really hard to explain
when no one understands

i feel lost,
like nobody knows I'm there
no one feels my pain
I'm broken beyond repair

as happy as i may look
its all a factor of hiding
inside I'm falling apart
this girl is slowly dying

i don't know who i am anymore
but nobody else can see
they all think that I'm fine
but they should know this isn't me

when will they realize
that this life is broken
and when will they get the hints i give
behind words that are unspoken

why cant i be happy for once
or just once, why cant life go my way
i hate being the way i am
but i promise you, I'm not OK..