At nine I remember the pain and sorrow
and always being scared.
I remember feeling lonely,
Because no one really cared.
I remember my sixth grade graduation ring,
It sparkled like a star.
Four days later mom took it back,
And left me with a scar.
At twelve I remember my Christmas play,
He promised he would go.
But when I came home and saw the look on dads face,
I knew he didn't show.
I cried and cried and hurt for days.
I just wanted someone to see.
I'm not too bright and talk too much,
But this wonderful person is me.
Years went by and I grew up,
I knew I couldn't stay.
So I found security with three different friends,
I knew there was a way
Those years were better for a little while
Cause it was always me and him.
But here I sit frightened once again,
Out here on this lonely limb.
Now here I am alone in life,
Just trying to get by.
The single life isn't easy for me,
I just can't figure out why.
After helping him and helping her
And trying to help them all.
Someone gets hurt in the long run,
And I'm always feeling small.
Now its time to analyze my life,
And see how it has been.
Its been a lonely road the whole way though,
Ive got to try again.
So one more time I try to please,
And end up hurting a friend.
Thats-all I-quit,
Can't help no more,
This has to be the end.
Finally I see the problems I have,
And will handle them in stride.
I will search my soul in Haves,
And live alone with pride.
