When It All Becomes Too Much To Bear

What am I suppose to do,
When this pain has become to much to bear.
Its becoming impossible to hide,
But so much harder to wear.

Deception is not easily subdued,
Affliction is hard to set aside.
But throughout my misfortune,
I've learned its harder to confide.

It's difficult to trust people,
I'm constantly reminded why.
Even for those who I am closest to,
No matter how hard I try.

This world has turned me timorous,
I'm consumed by my own depression.
But I learned to control it,
I've given into oppression.

But It's becoming harder to carry,
The weight has taken its toll.
The pain is overwhelming,
It's captivating my soul.

I can hardly breathe,
Anxiety is creeping down my neck.
All morals are vanishing quickly,
I'm becoming a wreck.

I have no one to turn to,
I have no God in which to confide.
I'm alone in this world,
I have no guide.

I don't know what to do,
I'm entrenched by despair.
My world has started to diminish,
And this pain is to much to bear...

(c) JP 2007