I lie Awake in Bed

I lie awake in bed,
Hoping these thoughts will get out of my head,
I can not go to sleep,
For my thoughts have grown too deep,
I feel like I'm stuck in between,
What's in my head and what's seen,
Like being lost at sea for far too long,
Or being in a place where I don't belong,
I don't know whether I like this or not,
But escaping reality is all I've got,
I don't understand what's happening to me,
But it's better than everything else I see,
All the screaming and gun shots,
Were caused by revenge and unknown plots,
To take out the enemy when it wasn't them,
All this chaos and mayhem,
I'm tired of it all, it's like a war,
Shooting up the liquor store,
When there's innocent people inside,
They didn't know but she was his bride,
And they killed her because they didn't think,
And they'd do it again, don't even have to blink,
And for what? Was it worth it all?
Making so much blood fall,
I lie awake in bed and I know what's going on,
Because for a long time this has gone on,
But I still manage to get away,
In my mind, every thing's OK.