Why do i still love you?

Why is it that i still love you....
you've caused so much pain..
you've left me for a friend twice.
you've broken my heart beyond repair.

and yet...everyday you're still on my mind.
i dream of you...your in my waking consciousness.
your intoxicating...and yet i just want to run from you to save myself the pain. but no i still stay as you try with her, as you did with me.

friendships still above all. even your happiness is above mine. You've changed me, yet you still criticize me for who i am. no matter what you ask i try my best to change what you criticize i try to be what you ask of me. and even when I've tried its not enough.

what you playing at? why are you toying with my heart? why do you lead me on when you leave me for my friends? why do you torture me so? why oh why do i keep on loving you?

I'm still in love with you.
i realize now you're revoking the love you led me to believe that i had from you. you're walking away from me again...yet i know i will still be here for you if things turn bad... i cannot help this its just i love you so much and i crave to be with you once again. reality says chances are slim to none. fantasy is toying with my heart.

all i know...i love you now and forever...never is this going to change no matter how you hurt me...intentional or not. call me a liar if you wish. tell me you don't love me i don't care. all i know is that i still love you nothing more matters. I'm putting myself through hell because i still love you and I'm not letting go.

when most break up friendships are hard to hold onto but i will suppress my love so that it doest show i will hide whatever i have to so that your happy and we can be friends..for at least a friendship is salvaged even if i have to keep my love at a distance when you're around.