It sucks wen stuff like this comes and hits you in the face.. you've been changing and growing the reputation you once had in control but now its now being thrown around and being spit on. i don't know whether to apologize to all the pain and hurt i've cause; will it even be willing to accept. True friends, which i thought i never once had can accept it slowly by each step taken, i respect that so much because now i look around i have very little respect for myself, Ive done horrible things that you think i would never do i and i have to look up at the world and see if i can get a second chance, am i even worth it? am i even ready? will i do it again? i can never quite learn from my mistakes, and usually people do... but with me its like it goes straight through me and out and nothing means shit to me cause i don't care but now since everything has hit me in the face; i can at least try and push myself to be what i was once before.
