I'll hold you now, and I'll let you sleep,
In a place where no one can hear your heart beat.
I have done you no wrong,
Done nothing but help you along.
So why do I feel like I've lied to you?
Why does it seem I haven't told you the truth?
I've suffered with your damage for all that I lack;
Had I known before there was no turning back;
I would have said no,
I would have closed the door,
But now there must be so much more.
More to let go of,
More to learn,
More to grasp hold of,
More to yearn.
More to feel,
More to die,
More to hurt from,
More to decide.
The more that there is,
The more we must know.
The more we find refuge in,
The more we find hope.
So why does it feel like I've done all that I can?
When you've lost faith, lost sanity, lost all that you can?
I'd waste away all of the pain,
For you I would kill myself again.
But the path I chose has made me think twice,
That maybe I should slip from your iron vice.
I don't listen to the reasons,
I don't listen to your cries,
I won't find myself alone and bleeding,
I've learned better this time.
I still feel that shame is on my side,
I still know that I have guilt to hide.
The vagueness has me lost in your mind,
And some things are better left behind.
I swallow my words into the depths,
I take into myself my last shallow breath.
