Alone

What was once a dream
Two lovers together
Hoping for great things
Is now gone.
Nine years of marriage
Most filled with disappointment, resentment and tolerance,
Is now over with the stroke of a judge's pen.
Lawyers got rich,
Love was lost,
The flame gone out
Forever.
Now I am alone.
Mother, provider, peacekeeper, warden
Superwoman!!!
Will I be alone forever?
Questions fill my thoughts,
Always there, always wondering,
Always disappointed.
I am worthy of love!
I am not a bad person!
I tell myself often, but somehow
It is not comforting.
Strong hands to hold me,
A big heart to love me,
A shoulder to cry on
Someone to rely on.
An equal, not a master,
A lover, not a convenience.
A whole person, not a shell.
Someone to love someone to love.
I am alone
Alone amid a houseful of people.
Alone amid couples and families,
Alone, alone, alone, alone.