Promises Unkept

I know I've made promises
Some haven't been well kept
I tried so hard to keep inside
These feelings of regret
I know I made you promises
Ones I had all the desire to keep
And as I lay here in my room I can't bring myself to sleep

I want to recap, go back to that time
When I looked in your eyes and we made that promise
I want to go back and make sure it stays safe in my heart
But it's too late for that
As I see you look at me with those eyes
I slowly break down a little inside

I lie to you, straight to your face
I long to be back in that place
Before I made you a promise I couldn't hold in
Before I told everyone my sin
I'm sorry if you ever find out
That I told the world, I let it leak out
I'm sorry if you regret it
I'm sorry that I couldn't help it

So please if you ever find out
Just yell at me, scream and shout
Tell me you can never trust me again
Because i need you to cause me this pain
So if you find out
Come straight to me
I'll start to cry and fall down on my knees

Please if you can forgive me
take me in your arms
And tell me these words
"Krissy, it's ok, I knew you couldn't keep something like that bottled up"
Or yell at me and tell me I should've kept my mouth shut