Rainbow of Gray

It's my rainbow of gray.
That keeps me where I stay.
It's my black && white life.
That drives me to the knife.
It's my invisibility.
That makes me want to bleed.
It's my fear && shame.
That causes me so much pain.
It's my Mom && Dad.
That have made me so sad.
It's all this rejection.
That leads me to depression.
It's these tears I cry.
That have caused me to die.
It's the fact I've tried.
That brought out all these lies.
It's my friends.
That force me to pretend.
It's this lack of faith.
That makes me hate.
It's my broken heart.
That tears me apart.

But most of all.
It's my rainbow of gray.
That keeps me where I stay.