Change is allways good

I cant stand the pain I go through
I just wish I can change into something new
I want to change for myself
Not for anyone else
Its something I have to do
Or else I might lose everyone I thought I knew
No one likes the way I've been
Not even myself when I always have to win
No one should turn out like me
They should be free
Its like living in a prison of terror
Every time you try to escape there's the fear of making an error
Never being perfect effects who I've become
Miserable cause I can't live on my own
I get someones trust and blow it
I make a big scene with a huge fit
Acting like they've made the mistake
But it's me who's trying to act fake
I try so hard to show my sensitive side
But always end up trying to hide everything inside
I just wish I could climb out of this abyss Ive fallen into
Is this a punishment for not being true
Should I live like this until I understand what Ive done was wrong
I understand that if everything I did in life would always turn out good
It wouldn't be reality like it should
So I'm just going to try to beat this person in me
I just need to find a way to succeed