Not Having You

There he goes, walking away.
Let's stop and rewind to that very first day.
I swear i lost my balance when i turned around and saw your face.
As much as i tried i couldn't find it in me to look the other way.

Your voice so sweet, singing in my ears.
The harmonies right on key, humming each note perfectly.
Who knew I'd meet someone like you.
Who knew I'd fall for a guy that was as great too. Exactly what i like, and much much more.
You've reached those standards, and even higher.

I can't say this is love.
For I've never spoken of it to you.
When we exchange words i get so nervous i feel like falling to the floor.
It's pretty dumb, and hard to explain.
But I've fallen so hard, I'm stuck this way.

With each glance and each look I'm leered in to this trap.
And each time i know I'm setting myself up. Not only for heartache, but let down as well.
For i know I'm late and my timing sucks.
And I've lost before i got a chance to tell you these thoughts i hold.

How each night i lye awake wasting time endlessly thinking of no one but you.
And how i try and try, but each time i want to leave those heavy baggages behind, i wimp out and load them back in my mind.
When i know she's stolen every last ounce of love from your soul, i still hold on to you as close as no one before.

I've seen the way you look at her, the way you stare and talk to her.
I could tell myself it doesn't bother me one bit. But i won't pretend and i wont lie.
It cuts me like a knife each time i witness it.
Although i found relief for a few moments in crying, it helps not at all, not one bit.

I knew it was coming, i knew it would sting, i knew i would hate it, and i knew what it would bring.