My hidden feelings

I cry in the dark to hide my pain
& hurt myself over & over again
i hide behind a fake personality
i am so fragile but yet i push an extra mile
to force that one smile
sure i may be all happy & kind
but you know nothing of whats really on my mind
on the outside I'm laughing and trying
on the inside I'm crying and slowly dying
I want to let go
And all the feelings shall blow
Then everyone could see
The pain inside of me
I'm Trying so hard to hold on
I wish everything was gone
I wish I could leave this world
I'm just an ordinary boy
Depressed and far away
But my feelings are here to stay
So I don't have to run and I don't have to hide.
I wanna Live for today and make the most of my life!
I should just face it.I'm gonna die.
So I can't escape it.But I don't have to live a Lie.