Killing time

Sitting here killing time
waiting for the class to end
chills run up and down my spine
with so many relationships that i have to mend.

these pills don't do anything for my feelings
at least they take the migraines away
I'm almost back to cutting
and the way that it takes away the pain.

yet i know it will make you sad
that's why i haven't in so long
I'm afraid you'll pull away
with sadness ever so strong.

so I'll wipe away my tears
and put on a fake persona
a face without any fears
just so you will smile.