Lost friend

I heard the gun shot,
i saw your tears,
i saw the blood coming out of your chest.

i cry at night knowing why you killed yourself,
knowing i could have stopped you,
but i didn't,
why do i live on with this torched heart,
why...

when i hear one song i lose my mind...
as your favorite part of the song floods my mind,

"when I'm gone just carry on don't mourn rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice just know that I'm looking down on you smiling not feeling a thing so babe don't feel my pain just smile back"
these words flood my Brain and repeat over and over

its the song that played at your furnel,
the song that played when you killed yourself,
and now the song that haunts me..