So much pain caused my babys death

The first day I saw you,
I knew it was love.
I walked through the door and it was as if I was full of charm
that�?�¢??s when you turned and looked at me with them eyes full of lust
all I could do is just turn and smile thinking in my mind yeah I know I am fine
and that I would have your love in a blink of my eyes

The second day I saw you,
I knew I had to mesmerize you even more so
I said to my self you love him right then go for it all
I kissed you this day and took you to a world of fantasy

The third time I saw you,
I made sure to tell you that I loved you as much as I could
I can still picture your face everyday we were at the park
you would look at me like a liLittleoy with his first gift in had
your eyes would shimmer like nothing unseen in everyday life

Time passed things happened but my love for you was still there and growing stronger
and for my shame you had to go not because you wanted but because you had to
and now I have not seen you
for about a year but you go through my head Ever single day

Now all I am longing for is for you
to come back again so I can feel the adrenaline rush of love in my veins once again
all I want to do is whisper in your ear, �?�¢?? I love you�?�¢?? while I have my hand in your hair
like when you were here by my side

For now I am alone and waiting for you
to come back it is as if the world froze
and I am still standing
at the same location where
you gave me a kiss and said, �?�¢?? I love you�?�¢??�?�¢??

The world to me is frozen but my heart still beats for your love

now that you have came back my world became a magical place filld with happynes and love
but there was only one problem my parents did not know about you and me and i was to scared to tell them because i was not willing to take a chance of loosing you so we always found a way to see eachother and even started to forget about my school so i started to started to skip to spend as much time with you as i could because once again i had to go on a vacation to mexico but days passd and the school became aware of what was going on and that same day so much joy and pain feel on my shoulders
my joy i found out that same day i was almost 4 weeks pregnet the pain was that my parents would never understand me my mom askd my why i was skipping to i told her everything about my one love but never menshiond to her i was soon to be a mom a day passd and my babys dady turnd 18 and on that day his mom kicked him out but now what is going to be of me and him that what i said to my self when i found he was kicked out he already knew he was going to be a dad and he was so happy and wanted this child too but so much strees caused me to go insane not knowing anything of were my babys dady is and if he is ok but what caused the major pain was that so much pain led to a miscarage and now i lost a baby that i never got to mett that i never got to even know if it was a boy or girl i wanted this baby so bad that i wish i could of at least had the chance to have it and give my life for my baby so now i sit here in a puddle of tears wondering why why me?
when i wanted this baby more than anything in the would right now