Something I Fail to Feel

I cannot cry
i do not weep
within myself
my emotions i keep
my thoughts locked away
my insides a mess
i fail to feel
my beating chest
i run from problems
i fake my smiles
i say I'm fine
but from fine i feel miles
you think I'm happy
because i shed no tears
while secretly i wish
to disappear
i hold my breath
waiting until i am gone
but with a long sigh
i keep moving on
myself i don't know
i never will
to feel alive
i would kill
the depression inside
eats away at me
consuming my all
until it is free
i try to escape
i don't like the pain
i need the sunshine
through all this rain
i hope for the day
i can feel again
and i will keep waiting
until my end
i cannot cry
oh i do not weep
within myself
my emotions they sleep.

-broken soul-
-04/05/06-

please r/c