I dont know

My mind is cruel and unkind.
It seems like i lost myself, i am no longer me.
I am what ever you want me to be, but i don't know
so i let my dark side choose but no matter what i do i know i will lose.

My hand is shaking, my angers swell, but why? I dont know, all i want to do is fight and yell. My arms are bleeding, my mind is racking, these thoughts that say you are for attacking.

Why do i love you so? I may never know. All i wanted was for you to care but all you ever do is give me a sickening stare. You look at me with disgust and i know you dont care. This is becoming more than my mind can bare. I love you, but i dont know why, you are too selfish but so am I.