What am I doing?

I'm about to throw away
The best thing that ever happened
The one person I had waited for
What am I going to do?

I'm about to throw away
One of the best people I've ever met
The one who for so long
Made me feel like I was the only girl in the world.

I'm about to throw away
The most amazing guy in the world
The one who can make you feel so happy
With just a single glance.

I'm about to throw away
The only thing that I ever wanted
The guy who I waited for for two years
The one who I loved with all my heart.

I'm about to throw away my world
I'm about to crush his heart
I made him fall and I can't catch him
I can't believe myself.

I wish that feelings would never fade
I wish that what we had would stay the same
I wish that I would love him again
I wish I didn't feel like this.

I love him
But I'm about to throw it all away.
I need help
But I can't talk to anyone at all.

(c) kirstyxo
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i'm a mess at the moment.