Can't stand it!

My heart is broken.
It's in a thousand pieces and its all because of you.
Why do you treat me, as if I'm not here?
I love you,
I hate you;
Man, it comes and goes.
I can't take it. I've waited long enough.
I wanted you gone,
out of my life.
And if your so strong, you might as well leave.
You disappoint me.
I can't stand the pain.
The feeling is strong, the excitement is all gone.
I miss my mom,
but where has she gone?
I've searched within but she's been erased, with no trace.
A blurred vision,
a memory is all thats left.
No sound.
No hope.
No second chance.

*I wrote this because of the way my mother has treated me. Because of the way she doesn't want me in her life....the way that she doesn't care about me.