All I Can Do Is Watch

Leave my sister out of this
it's between me and you
hurt me all you want,
but please don't hurt her too
i love her with all my heart
through sunshine, and through rain
tears start running down my cheeks
knowing i can't save her from the pain
she knows you as her mother
but not who you truly are
i hope she figures you out soon
before her arms are filled with scars
because that is what you've done to me
every time you put me down
I've cut a line into my skin
and I've cried without a sound
i hate what you have done to me,
but there's something i hate more
i hate that you now hurt my sister
as i watch her tears fall to the floor
that memory seems so clear to me
because i know how it feels,
to have a mother who doesn't care
her child's hopes, she steals
i remember waiting for you,
after every single game
hoping that you'd come to watch,
but every time was just the same
you would never be there
and i would walk away in tears
I've waited after EVERY GAME
for all my sixteen years
knowing you weren't coming,
knowing you were drunk at home
and on a team of twenty,
i still felt so alone
"hey Liv, where is your mom today?"
"why is she not here?"
i don't know, i would reply
while holding back my tears
and now i have to sit and watch
as my sister waits for you
after every single one of her games
i watch what she goes through
knowing EVERY FEELING
knowing whats going through her mind
thinking maybe just this once,
you'd be waiting, for her to find
and as the games come and pass
you still are never there
slowly i see my sister hurt
wishing that you'd care
and so many thoughts begin to race
so many feelings stir inside
and so i hope, that just one day
you'll see all the tears we've cried.

::I'm so sick of watching her hurt my sister. she's only nine::

advice please. comment. rate.

-Olivia (Liv)-
-6/10/07