Dead inside

I have to pretend,
To act and
To fake it,
To hide the truth
And live by lies,
So close your heart
And open your eyes.
Hear me, see me
I am no longer
The real me.
I must not let them see,
The real, raw pain
Beyond this fake smile.
And I shall be
Forever me,
Trapped in the body
Of a porcelain doll,
Fake smile painted on,
My ever-happy face,
Eyes glazed over
Ignorant to time and space.
No tears will fall
No heart will break,
No feeling at all.
What everyone
Wants to see
Is what I�ll be.
But a doll,
So fragile as me,
Offers no guarantee
No promise of safety,
And if broken
My smile will remain,
Shielding the world
From my endless pain.
And I will be
An empty shell,
Quietly insane,
Void of thought
And emotion.
This doll forever
A picture of
False happiness,
Forever stand tall,
Even when I feel
I�m going to fall,
Unable to die,
Because I�m already,
Dead inside.