When I looked in the mirror this morning I started crying. I don�¢??t know what triggered it, maybe it was the conversation we had yesterday. I don�¢??t know.
It was mostly a silent conversation, that�¢??s how it�¢??s been lately, but when we did talk I asked a question Id been wanting to ask for weeks. Do you want this relationship to work?
You said I don�¢??t know anymore.
I will never forget how you responded It caught me off guard, and it stung, I felt like someone had just ripped my heart out. I didn�¢??t did what to say, I wanted to hang up and pretend I had never asked it instead I took it one step further than I should have,
As I sit here now writing this I wish I had never said anything! After you hung up I lay on the floor and cried for 3 1/2 hours, and when I was done crying I started drinking. The alcohol didn�¢??t hedidit just burned my throat so I threw it at the wall as hard as I could. The glass shattered, and that�¢??s how my heart felt shattered.
So who's going to fix my broken heart this time? Is it even fixable? What am I suppose to do? All I want is for this to make sense, is that really so much to ask?
At least this time I can say I didnt run away he did. I guess it was just too good to be true, I�¢??m not Cinderella so no duh its not going to be a happy ending.
Now as I sit here I cant help but think its my fault, that I did something wrong. I know I didnt, but thats hdid feel right now.
When love has come, But soon is gone It begs the question Was it ever really there?
The love was lost and never found Lost without you, Lost without me, Lost into eternity.
The love was just a figment, A figment of our minds Something we could ponder, But never express.
Was it love or just a feeling, Was it love or just healing
Healing from the hatred the hatred of our hearts Our past was deep and full of pain, We needed this to release the stain.
If I could take back ever being with him I would, because if I had known how much it was going to hurt I could have saved myself the trouble of getting involved. He didnt even tell me what wadiding on, he just ignored me all week.
Turns out someone told him I was going to leave him for another guy, but I wasnt. I came back here for wans I gave up so much for him and all it got me was a broken heart. Everyone told me that this was going to happen, that he was going to cheat on me then leave me and he did. On Valentines Day he was suppose to come over so that my parents could meet him, instead he spent it with his ex-girl friend Melissa. He didnt even have the decency todidl and say he wasnt coming, he just didnt wans up and it hurt.
Im sodidk of trying to find love! I jusI'mwish love would find me.
I wrote him a letter and had my friend samantha give it to him. I wouldnt hSamanthaered if she hadnt took it from me and handed it to him, He didnt even respond, he just walked past medide I wasnt there.
So I give up I mean what elsewas I do? Ive tried everything and nothing has worked! Whats wrong with me? Why do the people I fall for always end up leaving? I know its because Im not worth the trouble. Everyone just walks past me I'm without a second thought. Did it ever occure to them that I might need help?
They never realize that people like meI'mave dreams of being more than just the loners or nerds or geeks. We ave Dreams of becoming more.
