The Pain I Share Alone

I'm laying here with tears
And the blade beside my bed
Not worrying about my problems or fears
After this there will not be one more tear shed

No more feeling this way
It's coming to an end
Nobody listening to what I say
Nobody to call a true friend

I keep crying before I take the last cut
While I clench my fists
I watch the blood drip from my wrists

I'm laying here starting to feel so free
Slowly going towards the light
My problems hiding for no one to see
Thinking of life just gives me the biggest fright

Never want to go back
Back to the horrible life of no one caring
So called friends giving you the ignorant sack
Nobody sticking by your side
Or even helping along the way
Always doing it by yourself
No one listening to what you had to say

Always thinking I'm fine
Even though I'm not
Always to busy to ask
If I'm alright or not

I keep laying here
With no more pain left to bare
No one here to save me
Or recognising my despair

So to all the people that abandoned me
And left me there on my own
You loose because now I am free
And now it's time to take my thrown

My heaven waits for me to leave
I never thought this would happen

But who is there to care?
No one! So now I go to my heaven
With no one left in my heart
And no one with me left in their's