The beginning

Its just the beginning,
how far could this go?
day 1,2,& 3..began the show.
i never planned for it to be this way,
all i wanted was to lose some weight.
dieting never worked, && neither did exercise.
looking at myself disgusted, is the pain that i hide.
its going on day 4, and i hit the floor faster than i could ever imagine.
with only consuming fluids, will soon turn to distiled water...
i keep thinking to myself "will this go any farther?"
gagging from crying on an empty stomache, because im not able to vomit.
everyone is questioning me so i get very angry and lash out...
im not acting myself, and people notice.
my insides burn...and my tummy is turning..
how much more can i take? my body is hurting.
but i wont give up. i wont eat. i wont cave in. im sticking to my diet plan
skinny and food don't rhyme
so im not turning back..
no....not this time.