If I..

If I don't smile much or start to cry, don't worry, I'll be fine...

If I stare at the stars and then turn away it's only cos I'm missing your touch and I need your love...

If I close my eyes and a small smile appears, it's cos I'm thinking of you and how I miss you so...

If I stop breathing for an instant and slowly look down it's only cos I saw you smiling at him...

If I slowly begin to pray everyday and every night, it's only cos I'm praying that you're happier now and that you're finally safe...

If I lay down and fall asleep with a smile on my face, it's only cos I'm dreaming of you and that sweet smile touching those eyes and making them twinkle so bright...

If I slowly lick my lips, it's only cos I'm trying to remember the taste of your soft kiss...

If I wake up with tears in my eyes, it's only cos reality has set in and I know you're no longer mine to hold...no longer mine to have...no longer mine to love...

Don't worry though cos when I get down to the place where I can still feel the pain of my loss...it's OK cos I only have to think of you and how my love still grows...even if you're not here to know it's true...