Niave Pain

I remeber the first time it happened.
I was bored, curious.
It felt so good.
I don't even know what it was.
It felt like a strong high.

Started out as randomosity...
Then became a need,
My way of freedom,
Control.

Emotional pain left me twisting.
Physical freedom, pushed me forward.
Breathing in the negative,
And bleeding it back out...

Such release...
Such passion...
And obsession,
Was this 'randomosity'.