Wonder

Sitting here I ponder,
About what has happened of late,
Why did things end the way they did,
And fill me with such hate.

I never thought in my wildest dreams,
That things would ever end this way,
There is so much I want to get out,
So much I need to say.

Now I sit here with so much time,
Time to think and to reflect,
Did you really have to treat me as you did,
With no feeling, no heart, no respect.

I think of the words you spoke to me,
Words I thought came from your heart,
Was it all a pack of lies,
Right from the very start?

Did I ever mean anything to you,
Or was I just a bit of fun,
Did you get scared and panic,
Is that why you decided to run?

I have so many questions,
All if's, but's, why's and when,
But will I ever get to ask them,
Will I ever see you again?