No one knows when the time ends.
i'm just so sick and tired to always pretend.
damn you've felt this just for a month?
I'm feeling this for more then a year, you still hunt.
and not only the pain that you gave me,
but all the other things what i went trough.
I've been trough more things that the average ''you'' do.
the things you said and done will always remains.
the chapter is already gone where i always explained.
but i did that because you act different than the others.
you gave me a feeling that you really cared.
i thought i gave my druthers,but i was even unclear to myself.
i went trough the park at night and for hours i sat and stared.
thinking of the last year,what happened all to me.
those suffering,stephdad who tried suicide,so much more
but i just can't be the happy girl that i used to be.
so much anger and pain all those months long.
i prayed and tried but still it isn't gone.
if I'm thinking at the things I've done,i throw up and cry.
at that moment i felt nothing just said myself goodbye.
and the next day the quiltyfeelings came back.
damnn how soft i was trying to stayed strong but still so wack.
i always said that I'll make a new start,
but as you said i was stuck in a circle,but i tried so hard.
you wouldn't believe me anymore,the truth is i even
wouldn't believe my self. i just want to close that god damn door
and walk away. almost said everything,but there is still so much
to say. can anybody out there feel me? cause i cant seem to
feel my self. so much anger, i had to count to three.
that doesn't help me,i hit my wall and knuckles get bruised.
hit the pain away,fall down on my knees,I'm so confused.
i take a piece of broken glass and cut your name in my skin.
I'm feeling nothing now. everywhere i go we've been.
there isn't a place where i can forget all about this.
i don't know how i came into this business.
someday you might understand,but so far now,
you still got me in the palm of your hands.
I'm broken now want to cut my life away..
i don't know if there are any reasons why i should stay..
