Just another bad Life going right

Cant be happy when i see myself in the mirror
Not sure when this happened and not sure why
All i know is that this ain't me and I'm not all right
i know iv let myself down
I'm my own worse enemy...I'm not sure not proud
I ask for help but let no one in
Where is the old me....the happy cheerful kid
Wish upon a star...Then watch it crash
My dreams and hopes getting smash
Is this why iv changed or is it part of life?