Reflection

When i look at a picture of myself
i look at it really closely
and i can't believe that i did that to myself
that i cut myself

look at the picture just makes me think of how i could do that to myself
why i would do that to myself
how could i hurt myself

as i look in the mirror ... i don't see myself doing that...

as my friends say that they don't see it in me
but when they look in my eyes they see a person that is sad and lost...

as they say that to me i cry and think of why i am doing this to myself if i never did this the first time would i still have the sad and lost look in my eyes

or would it be a normal happy person with joy and happiness in there eyes...

the more that my friends tell me that when they look in my eyes they see a sad and lost person the more it makes me think that I'm sad and lost...

that i don't have happiness in my body but deep down i do have a cheerful side...

when i look in the mirror i don't no why i don't see it in me... people don't think of me as one of those people who do that to them selfs

well i am sorry to all the people that thought that i wasn't one of thous people but i am sorry that i am... well i don't do it all the time... but still i am sorry

sorry to all my friends, family and to my boyfriend... sorry that i ever did this but i love all you guys so much xoxoxox