Nothingness

I don't understand anything
Life is to complicated
To understand
A thing
The music is blaring
In my ears
So I don't hear
The sounds of my cries
And screams
I long to figure it out
But the closer I become
The more pain
Becomes me
So I just leave it be
Sitting on the stones
Trying to understand
But nothing comes about
So I'm swimming
In the nothingness
I have become
And nothing more