Never Say Never

I'll never get the things I want
Your stupid words that tend to haunt
Saying I'm nothing but worthless
Just reminding me that you're heartless
Since I don't cry,my skin cries blood
Those precious tears start to create a flood
And your distance and games will begin to drown
You're nothing all the way deep down
Tired,but i can't seem to fall asleep
Because I dived into my thoughts too deep
Some days I want to end this now
Just couldn't figure out how
I had thoughts of a suicidal exit
But too weak and afraid to go through with it
Terrified that I might become more brave
Wouldn't that make me too late to save
When I need you,you're never anywhere
I know now,life is anything but fair
I'm always the one who's left empty
Do you think its good to be me
I know many others has gotten worse luck
But why does my life have to suck
I know I'm selfish for thinking these questions
Don't I have a right to complain about the situations
I'm standing doing nothing while I'm getting lied to
Even if the things you say could be everything but true
Refusing the tears to roll down my cheek
Forcing back everything so I don't seem weak
My words might seem fake,pretend
And if it is then its synthetic like a friend
If you can't catch my drift
Then your perspective wouldn't shift
But if you understand,that's nice
Maybe this can make you think twice
I hate you always and I guess forever
I'll never love,but never say never