Ruined achievment

I strive for achievement
I aim to receive that perfect A+
But know one understands
Why I make such a fuss

You study so much
You are really smart
This doesnt mean anything
It doesnt go to heart.

When I get back an 80%
My heart hits the floor
This is not what I deserve
I didn't try my best.

I put in so much effort
But I never achieve
I know I get good marks
But 80% isnt enough

i beat myself up so much
as i didnt didn't do my best
that extra night of study
could of paid off those painful debts

To dream of that ENTER
So embedded in my head
The thoughts clicking overtime
Spinning in my head

I need that perfect ENTER
To make me succeed
For if I fail my dream
my life will flow down the wrong stream

13 years of schooling
thrown down the drain
watching my VCE certificate
drown in the rain

Stop criticizing my efforts
Or ruin my potential
You dont understand
so dont try and lend a hand.

Others dont understand
Why a B+ gets me upset
When they get a C
and are over the moon

But I need that perfect ENTER
To get me to where I want to be
For if I dont reach my goal
I will never reach the key

This key unlocks my heart
my heart wants to be free
Its sick of being trapped
In pain and suffering