Whats wrong with me

Alone at night
Crying cold tears again
As I do so often
How did this happen?
Why to me?

I wonder whats wrong with me
When I look in the mirror
All I see is dark circles
Bloodshot eyes
A pale face and pink lips
Is there something more?

Is it so deep inside
I don't know what it is
Or where it is?
Can I find it or
Is that someone else?

I don't want anyone to get close
I don't want to share my pain
I don't want to hide my tears
I already hide my face

Cant they see whats wrong with me?
I'm broken up inside
I cant find my way out of the dark
I cant break through the surface
I'm drowning in my dark abyss
and I don't even know
whats wrong with me?

I wonder whats wrong with me
Day after day
Night after night
Tear after tear
Drop after drop
Pain after pain
Vein after vein
I cant find the problem

I cant hold on to me
As I fade away
Whats wrong with me
Why am I broken?

Can I be fixed?
Can I be saved?
Can someone help me?
Will someone?
Wont they?
Find out whats wrong with me....

I never wanted it to end like this
I drank too much of life hope
In the end I was to blame
In the end I had to fall
I will find my place among the dead
Where I belong

I wonder whats wrong with me
When I cry cold tears
Laying on my bed, broken up
Whispering to myself, as I do so often
How did it happen to me?
Why did it happen to me?

I look in the mirror and who I see is who I really am
Pale skin
Red lips
Green eyes
Black hair
Purple circles
Only because I am
Dead

What was wrong with me you ask?

Even I do not know
suppose I was angry
But it doesn't matter know
This is where I am

Never again will I wonder
Whats Wrong With Me.