Cannot

Look at me
please donut try
I'm not one of them
i donut stand high

tears fall ,
unknowing closed
beneath this mask
I'm a person you will loathe

i am not pretty
i do not hide
i say what i want
with no goodbye

you may point and laugh
for the joke is on you
look at my arms
see what i do

blades criss cross
over and over
maybe one day
my pain will sober

these pills i drop
take me away
so i can fly to another day

my heart bleeds
enoughs now split
ashamed i hide it
flustered with guilt

no longer will i eat
food i cannot bear
please baby help me
for i no longer care

no more noise
everything is white
the pain is gone
i see the light

so faint it is
now nowhere to be found
kiss my blooded lips
for i am tied and bound

* i no this is not one of my best