Pain

Why am I still in love with you?
Then again people say you never forget your first
I know deep down, what you said is true
But the pain in my heart, well it really hurts

This pain I’m going through
Is indescribable
All because of you

It’s too soon to move on,
Well for me it is at least
I’m being told, to find someone
Someone who’s going to care for me

I know you cared,
Just not enough
People tell me, to go with him
But it’s too soon, and not that simple

It’s only been a week,
But I know it’s going to be much longer and harder
I should listen to people, when they tell me things
I should’ve listened to you when you were by my side

Not now, when it’s too late, and I’ve ruined the past
All I have is the present and future
I can make it my own,
All alone

I need to follow my dreams,
But my dreams lead to you
You’re in them each and every night
Which makes it harder for me to move on

Last night, I dreamt, you were there
Lying beside me through the night
Like it used to be
All warm and happy

My head resting on your chest
Listening to your heart
That thing I thought I had of yours
From the very start

I woke up, just realising
I was being stupid
Dreams don’t come true
No matter how much you want them to

I opened my eyes and looked around
For those memories of you
That teddy you brought me once
Just reminds me of you

I looked around my room
Wanting to forget my feelings
But everything I have
Reminds me of you

I need a new start
A new beginning, middle, and end
I’ll start another story
This time all alone

I don’t want you in it
I just want my friends
Though all along you’ve been my friend
So maybe you will be there

Someone I meet along the way
Just say hi, each and everyday
The one, where feelings never go
Past that friendship stage

I wish those feelings never came out
I wish I’d kept them all inside
That way I would never have to hide
These tears falling down

I know its rubbish..but in my eyes everything in it is true!