I can't lose him

Although it seems I walk through life on my own and alone, I'm not. If I glance both ways I can see people who care about me and are here for me. They've helped me with a problem that i've had for 4 years. This is one thing that i can't face on my own. I can't stop no matter what i try. This year I only stopped for 2 months and i had a reason to stop then but that reason left me and that drew me back to cutting twice as bad. But what's great great about this is I still have him by my side to help me every step of the way and i couldn't ask for more. My friends are everything to me, they are my life and my family, I don't know what I'd do if I lost them.