I'm Sorry!!!!

If I could only take back what I said to you.
You did not deserve that. I feel like there is this little whole in my heart now and will never be filled again.
No one in this world could fill that whole but you. If only I could take it back and have you back. You were everything to me. And always will no matter what. you will always have that special spot in my heart. never will i forgive myself for the way i treated you.
I had the best thing going and I had to ruin it because i wasn't Happy being happy. I'm so used to not being happy that that one time i was actually happy i could let myself do that.
Never will i forget the day i lost you. Mi Amor. You were mohr to me then you will every know n anyone will ever know. You were the most valuable thing in my life. you were mohr valuable to me then my family was to me. I miss you dearly Ryan. I truly love you.
If I could only take back what i said to you.