As I Lay Dying

I'm locked in the pain and there's no way out
I'm blasting the music so you can't hear me shout
I'm drowning in blood and tears in the rain
If you're living like I do then you're living in pain

People that tell me to stop how I am living
I guess what they mean is I need to stop dying
No matter what you do once you're gone you are gone
Only in death can life go so wrong

When your body's so weak you can't lift your head
Its hard to wake up when you're already dead
So shut the fu&# up I'm going to sleep
I'm going to lie here..and my soul you can keep

I'm gone in my room and nobody cares
I'm missing at school and the clothes mother wears
Are stained with my blood that she holds in her hands
I'm another victim of her go&d#%n plans

I can't believe I let my self go
I laid there in darkness till the pain wouldn't show
And my vision is foggy and I can't hardly see
It's a life full of torture if you're living like me

There's nothing to hear in the dead silent house
Not a creature is stirring, not even a mouse
My mother has left me home here to bleed
I'm locked up inside and it's my silent plead

The cars are rushing out side my walls
It's all I can hear as the rain still falls
If only if only somebody cared
If outside this tomb, somebody dared

To step in and save me from the fate I've been damned
I'm a lost victim of my mother's cruel plans
I can't imagine what could've gone wrong
So as I lay dying I'm singing this song

My song of my heartache and the song of my pain
It's always here saving me and keeping me sane
But now it's my last hope along with my last breath
And now all I hear I the sweet song of death

My vision isn't foggy it's already gone
Out my whitering ears I hear the soft song of dawn
And know that I made it through her murderous schemes
And inside my tomb, my still heart beats

But before I can answer to the cry of my life
I wake to the sound of a murder's knife
I try to turn but the pain is too great
And yet again, my life my mom takes