A Place for My Head

It's like every time I look in the mirror I cry
Torn up by that hatred and the crap and the lies
No more pain no more tears will come from these eyes
No more I can't take it no more it ends tonight

All the cowards yeah they're all tucked in their beds
Hiding away, resting their heads
Got the friends and the family all afraid of me
Whys everyone mad at me I can't believe what I see

All alone and all cold and there's no way out
Trapped in the pain and the fear and the doubt
Lost inside and no where to run
I'm screaming and bleeding this ends where's a gun

Broken and pouring my heart and my soul
Crying and dying I'm out of control
Desperate desires and hopelessly gone
And I still don't believe where I went wrong

Stuck up in the world all messed up and afraid
I'm not needing the beatings just the friendship you gave
Till it all turned around in the crap and lies
I don't want this no more can't take no more fights

I'm trying I'm dying don't want it this way
Ripping my soul out just to get you to stay
Fighting so hard for something that's dead
All I need is a home and a place for my head

I'm looking for something I know it ain't real
I'm always so numb by the pain I still feel
Wanting so bad something no one ever finds
Locked up away; trapped; for the rest our lives

Holding on I'm still holding but I'll slip and I'll fall
But before that happens it can't it it's my call
I'll jump if I have to it's my life and it's ending my way
You can't and you won't you won't save me I pray

Yeah we're still not believing the crap they all say
Nobody can break us you'll pay yea you'll pay
All the lies all the hate those bas*****s all said
All I'm wanting is loving and a place for my head

Still dying for trying peace up in here
But here you all are no where far wrapped up in your fear
You can't let you won't let it pull you in
You believe that until you all die and nobody wins

Life ain't a game so there's too many players
But one and by one they're gone all the haters
And this place can be all safe and all free
Because now tragedy dying and pain's what we see

I'm stuck up here I lost it I'm dead
The game's not a game like everyone said
I played it good and I give my self credit
Because now I have it; a place for my head