My Apology

There are things on my mind
that i wish to say
they ' re bothering me
as i try to lay

i 've spoken so many words
and did so many things
its a shame
i probably will never be given my wings

my fathers death
i should of stopped
all that needed to be done
was for my heart to be unlocked

instead i kept my prode
and went on with my life
in exchange for nothing
he happily took away my strife

then there ' s abby
my " best friend forever "
i wasn ' t there when she needed me
go ' s to show i ' m not so clever

i remember a summer
not too long ago
when i met a boy at camp
we started our friendship rocky and slow

look at us now, still friends
for the past 6 years
through it all
we ' ve shared every tear

this past year
i hurt alot of people
that meant alot to me
and now... i know how they feel

i apologise to a boy
who i embarrassed pretty bad
[i didn ' t really mean it]
and now i ' m wondering what we could of had

and then there are those girls
as fake as can be
they make me sick to my stomach
[but her] she ' s the only girl he can see

and for once in my life
i wish i was like her
cos then he ' d like me
of that i ' m sure

i know i ' m not pretty
and it matters to you
but get to know me
and you ' ll see i ' m the truest of the true

and i really want
happieness all around
harmony in one color,one race, one world
laughs would be a lovely sound

then there ' s my birthday
which i wish my parents would drop
something always happens
that makes me want to stop

last year i lost everything
i lost all hope and gratitude
i gained anger and hate
a total 180 was made on my mood

i ' m wishing everything
could change
[but lets face it] its impossible;;;
in today ' s age

copyrighted JENNAY 7.16.07